You're Not Good Enough !

okay, what you'll feel or think when you've done something the best you can give
but in the end,
people says,
            you're not good enough!

it really ticks me off when that happens.

really, it happened to me

in this two month i've give everything i can, i waste everytime i have, i devoted myself
and at some point, they say,
you're not good enough!

then all your hardwork and everything flashes before your eyes
and all of sudden, you feel clueless, speechless
you don't have the spirit to speak
you feel everything you did is pointless
you feel like giving up
you feel weak
you feel small
you feel you're not good
in fact, you're really not good

i know i know,
just ignore what people say
but wish i can ignore them,
everytime i tried to do it,
the voices are all around me whispering to reminds me,

            what the hell are you doing?!
                             no, no you're doing it all wrong!
           you're not good enough!

i wish i could be the kind of people that don't really care about what people think and say

but i wasn't that kind of people

but hey,
who cares anyway?
im just being ridiculous
someday they will know who i am
but i wonder when that they will come

so, things i've learned:
never underestimate people
give everything, expect nothing
always gives support to people because who knows, your support may drive a person to success



that's it, thank you for spending a brief moment here :)

PMR Results :DD

hey guys, i just wanna say

I GOT 8A IN PMR !!! 

ALHAMDULILLAH PRAISE TO ALLAH :'D

AND SPECIAL THANKS TO MY TEACHERS, PARENTS, BROS AND SIS, AND ALL MY FRIENDS :DD

WITHOUT THEM, I WOULDN'T ACHIEVE THIS MUCH

THANK YOU :D

HOOOOOOYEAAAHHHHHHHHH

A Few More Days to go :|

alright, this is it..
this Thursday, 22 December 2011,
this eff-ing day scares and haunts me days and nights...
on that day, my PMR result will be out
and that's pretty much driving me crazy

it's not that i don't have the confident to get straight A's,
it's just.... idk ==
if other people says that they had a dream about their result,
or they had a good feeling about their result,
or even they don't feel like getting all A's
well, to be honest, i don't have any of that feeling,
it's just..idk laa damn shit ==

hahaha whatever it is,
i've already started to solat hajat and baca yasin and stuff
for those who are form 3,
here's some tips before taking your result
1) solat hajat, pray for you result
2)  solat tahajud, to show God that you're determined to get straight A's
3) puasa sunat, ... just do it
4) ask forgiveness from your parents, teachers, friends and ask them to pray for you
5) tawakal jee

alright,if you've done these stuff, may you get straight A's.
Amin :)

srsly, these stuff is better than these:

God, please give me straight A. *send this message to 30 people or you'll flunk in PMR*

when the first time i got this message, i was like:

 wtf dude? my result depend on this chain message? ==
and why would  i waste my time and credit to send this crap?

srsly guys, if anyone tries to send me this kind of message thing, i'll kill you == i mean it
this thing just making people getting parnoid about their result
so, stop it guys ==


so, i guess this is it, for now
so, i end this post with a doa

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم يا الله، امڤونيله دوسا-دوسا كامي، دوسا ايبو باڤ كامي، دوسا ڬورو-ڬورو كامي، دوسا مسلمين مسلمات. يا الله كاو ڤرمودهكنله اوروسن كامي د دنيا دان د اخيرة، كاو تابهكنله هاتي كامي والاو اڤ سهاج كڤوتوسن PMR كامي، يا الله، كاو كورنياكنله كڤوتوسن يڠ چمرلڠ ايايت سموا A دالم PMR. سسوڠڬوهڽ كامي ايڠين ممبالس جاس ايبو باڤ كامي دان ممبوات مريك ترسڽوم.  أمين

growing up is hard :|

is it just me or we're getting lazier as we grow up?
like we didn't feel like doing anything that doesn't really matter to us.
like going out to play,
like helping family members doing chores,
like waking up from bed even it was 1.00 p.m?
like going to take a bath?
did you ever feel too lazy to do all that?

well i do

i wake up at 12 noon, bath at 3.p.m, and do some damn thing until 5p.m, then hang out with my friends, then Magrhib bath again, then watch tv till midnight sometimes till 2a.m if there's a good late night movie.then sleep.then wake at 12 noon, bath at 3p.m and do some...wait, it's like dejavu or something.

and one more thing, i felt my holiday passes too quick.
i mean there's only a few weeks left on the calender before PMR results are out and  then,
back too school. yay! ==

the point is, ughh == there's no point at all...
i'm just saying what i think and what i felt...
about growing up..

sometimes i wish i wanna be just a kid forever...
well everyone knows that sucks.
but i really has a good point there.
being a kid, you'll always laughing your ass off, will always smile, you don't mind if people hate you, you don't care what happen, you won't feel lonely, everytime you messed up something, nobody would scold you. you will always be ... happy

ok that's it, i don't wanna mess this blog with my personal feelings whatever..it's pretty much like a journal or something. i'm not gonna make it looks like a girly diary something.
 i only write when important event occurs. haha

okay then, thanks for reading :)