so everyone's talking bout our national recent football game right?
it's Harimau Malaya against Gajah Putih...
quite tough huh?
well they wasn't that tough anyway
we lose because the oppenent have some edges against us.
here is my opinion of the recent game which
Malaysia loses to Thailand 1-3 by aggregate
well if you guys really can see it,
this year AFF Suzuki Cup is actually important for us as the defending champion.
but, as soon as i read in newspaper the Harimau Malaya's lineup this time..
i'm quite sure that the team will face some difficulities with all the players
which coach KRG calls it experimenting.
yeah i know, it wasn't really his fault actually,
but still i still blame him for trusting our weak defenders..
the only defenders whom i saw really doing their job is
Mahali and Fadhli Shas (even though he was issued with a red card),
while Aidil is quite good but still he do a lot of careless mistakes.
And our midfielders is a total messed up.
Even Safiq Rahim also messed up.
the goalie?
i think both goalie did their very best
i don't blame goalkeepers for our decreasing quality
it's the defenders...i repeat, the DEFENDERS IS SUCK :P haha
beside the poor lineup,
the injury of our star player such as Wan Zack and Kunanlan did affect our gameplay.
and on the last match...
this one pretty much controversial, i know, but
the Korean reff is kinda unfair, especially with the Malaysia player Fadhli Shas,
who was given a red card in a very controversial scene.
If you do look carefully, the Siamese player who actually commited a faul on him,
but, the refferee saw it differently...
and last but not least, the Football Association Thailand officials who actually
give the HM players a bad treatment even before the game.
They have to do the training session in an ill-conditioned field.
and also the field of the game stadium itself is at worst condition.
worser that SNBJ or even Gelora Bungkarno(no offense)
well, in conclusion...
the conditioned is not fit enough for a defending champion.
still..the champion of my heart and soul
Harimau Malaya SELAMANYA HARIMAU MALAYA !!! AUMMM !! Σ:
it's been a long time doesn't it?
i guess this blog kinda lefted out alone
and i guess i should've been writing more and more entries next time
if only i have time
haha
so, anyway
imma tell you about my fahkink holiday
it's actually started 2 weeks ago, if not mistaken
and realizing the fact that i've free myself from boarding sch
even in such short period,
it's a blissful time for me
for me and all SBP student out there
in this 2 months im gonna wake up late, eat a lot, sleep all day and stay up late
hahaha
pathetic.
pitiful.
sadistic.
but it's some kind of way of me enjoying my holiday
it's no one bussiness
wait, how 'bout the exams
yeah the final exam,
diagnostic
sad beautiful tragic
haha no, that's Taylor Swift :3
okay, so my exams,
it's nothing to be proud of
i've scored fiveaystwobistwosis and no fails. epic.
hahaha read it if you can :P
and i've got 2.889 for the GPK stuffs
and i've ranked
7th for in-class ranking,
86th for in-batch ranking,
969th for the whole damn sbp in malaysia
it's an average result
but, of course i'm grateful for what i've achieved
grateful, not satisfied
i could've earn better than this.
and that is the promise for the next year
Grand Exams,
The Malaysia Educational Certificate (SPM)
i'll make something happen
you just wait!
and pray of course xDD
pray for me..
anyway,
Happy Holiday to all :D
and a very good luck to all SPM candidates :)
itupun kalau dia tak boleh think positive dan optimist terhadap kritikan orang
but, there's quite a difference between despise and critics
underrating can downgrade someone
while critics can help someone
okay,
so aku nk share lah experience aku
fyi, for some reason i cant explain
people always look down on me
they dont even give a chance for me to prove myself
the truth is, i felt sooo down, so 'terhina' when people uderrate me
i tried to think positive, tried to accept critism
at least i tried
okay, so this is the first tale,
there's a interclass football tournament,
im pretty excited coz i love playing football,
i ask my classmate whether i could be on the team
even tho they accept me
i thought i overheard something like:
alah kau tkyh main lah, bukan gempak pun... hahaha
selain tu,
faiz main bola? harapan la haha
ada jugak,
kau main bola? memang jauh lagi lah nk pegi hahahaha
yeah i knew, kelakar isn't it
ha ha ha ha gelak lah
i knew who i am
im not messi
im not cr
im not balo
im not fabregas
im am not some motherfucker who can kicks a ball 120km/h and score a damn goal
im didn't even play for my school
im nobody, nothing to proud of
when talking about football but what about gimme a chance maybe?
pass me the ball, let me dribble for a few secs and make a try
then they said:
alah kalau kasi pun bukan boleh score
and the most 'menyakitkan hati' :
KAKI BANGKU !!
sejak tu, aku menjauhi bolasepak setiap kali berhadapan dengan mereka
next story,
a simple short story
it's 3 am and im wide awake
it's euro 2012 right?
how could i miss the match of my favourite team, Spain
it's the quarter finals,
Espana against Portugal
it's a glorious night
Spain wins the penalty shootout
im feel great that night until someone tegur me
weh, tengok bola? ingatkan kau pegi bace buku ke study ke haha
sekali lagi, kelakar doh.. sumpah lawak yelah maybe penampilan aku memang nerdy semua and membaca merupakan hobi aku
tapi tk bermakna aku kene ngadap buku 24 jam tk bermakna aku tkleh enjoy tgk bola tk salah kan?
3rd story bende ni melibatkan orang yg dekat dengan aku aku cakap dengan dia aku minat memanah then dia cakap:
memanah? kau boleh nampak ke?
yeahh i know i know
aku rabun specky
mate kero mate bulo
kalau ikut bahasa dalam daerah Muar
tapi, gimme a chance maybe?
rabun tk bermakna buta
lagipun kalau rabun, pakailah spek
kalau ikut buku teks Science Form Three eyes defects can be corrected by using lenses
maksudnya kalau rabun pakai spek
kire mate kita 'setaraf' dengan mate orang normal
paham?
corrections of eyes defects - buat rujukan anda
4th drama
there's a battle of the band tournament
and they're looking for a keyboardist
im feel sooo excited
i offered myself
then they said:
kau reti ke main piano?
then someone who knew i can play piano said:
alah kau bukan gempak pun
wow, tk sangka
i know im not beethoven
im not mozart
im not yiruma
im not some rich motherfucker who went to piano class
im only can afford to learn piano from YouTube
the rule is easy,
they reject me
then i'll reject them
simple as that
im not 100% talented
but at least i can play
but im not playing for morons like YOU !
so, conclusion dia
jgn underrate seseorang pleaseeee
sbb bile kite look down kt seseorang,
mungkin dia jauh lebih hebat dari kita
insaflah
last but not least, sorry kalau bahasa yg aku gunakan dlm post ni agak kasar ==
12 March 2012 Another year has already pass. Another step was taken. Which everytime I grew older and older. After 16 years I was born to this world, I promise myself I'll be a better person coz i know, life's short, I don't want to take it for granted. And ofc, thank you to everyone who send me wishes. I am touched thank you
alhamdulilah bersyukur aku kepada Allah kerana dengan limpah kurnianya, Dia telah berikan aku kejayaan demi kejayaan, kesenangan demi kesenangan serta kesejahteraan yang berterusan. Jika sebelum ini Dia menganugerahi aku dengan keputusan cemerlang dalam PMR, Dia jugak telah berikan aku rezekinya lagi, dengan izinNya, aku telah ditawarkan ke Sekolah Berasrama Penuh.
Sekolah Menengah Sains Alam Shah, Cheras
secara jujurnya aku tak rase ape-ape bila dapat tahu aku ditawarkan masuk sekolah tu. maybe ibu dan ayah agak gembira dan adik beradik serta saudara-mara turut tumpang gembira. tapi aku?
aku rase mcm ... 'takde rase'
lol this is absurd, but that's the truth
bile dapat tahu je aku akan masuk asrama
satu-satunya benda yang terlintas di fikiran aku:
Maktab Sultan Abu Bakar
ya ini kenyataan
MSAB atau lebih mesra dengan nama English College (EC) ini telah meninggalkan seribu satu memori dan mengukir sejuta kenangan dalam lipatan sejarah hidup aku
di sinilah berlakunya titik perubahan dalam hidup aku
di sini jugaklah aku banyak belajar
yelah nama pun sekolah, so mestilah belajar
tapi, aku bukan saje belajar Mathematics, Science, English dan Geografi semata-mata
aku jugak dah banyak belajar tentang kehidupan
tentang pengalaman
tentang persahabatan
tentang......macam-macam lah
banyak sangat
terlalu banyak
mungkin bukan kerana sekolah ini sebenarnya,
tapi mungkin kerana jenis persahabatan yang aku dapat kat sekolah tu
itulah yang selalu membuatkan aku rase berat hati untuk meninggalkan sekolah tersebut
yeah maybe EC ialah 'all-boys sch' dan selalu dikaitkan dengan perkataan 'gay'
secara bahasanya, 'gay' jugak bermaksud gembira
(rujuk kamus)
so aku tetap gay walaupun orang kata EC gay :DD
secara jujurnya jugak, aku tak pernah rasa malu, segan, bengang or sakai kalau aku keluar even ke bandar,
just dengan seluar sekolah dan baju sekolah. tak kisah lah baju sukan atau baju Phy.Ed yang colour hijaukuning,
tapi aku tetap rase bangga memakai baju tu di mana jua
aku tak nafikan dalam masa tiga tahun ini merupakan antara tahun yang paling sukar bagi aku
aku tak nafikan masa form1 aku selalu direject,
bende alah ni berlarutan hingga ke form2, dan sedikit ke form3
pastu dah form4 dah tak kene dah
tapi rilex ah, dekat EC budaya reject ni biaselah
kalau tk bole handle baik pindah sekolah lain
selain tu, aku jugak tak nafikan,
aku ni takdelah mempunyai kawan yang ramai, jauh sekali berpengaruh
aku sedar aku ni takdelah pandai mana, ade orang jauh lagi pandai dari aku
aku jugak tahu aku ni takdelah power mana dalam bidang sukan
nak kata kaya pun takdelah kaya mana. duduk rumah teres je bukan banglo
dari segi cara bersosial, aku ni memang tak pandai bergaul
dari segi rupa paras fizikal, memang TAK lah
dah lah nerd, tak handsome, tak pandai, tak power, tak comel, tak tak tak macam-macam lah
but,
against all odds,
adelah lime enam ekor yang sanggup lepak dengan mangkuk ayun macam aku
so, yeah aku terharu :'D
secara jujurnya, aku rase sayu dan sedih apabila aku sedar, aku tetap akan tinggalkan EC, tinggalkan sahabat-sahabat aku, tinggalkan semuanya.
memang kalau nak blah aku selalu pesan,
WEI, KEEP IN TOUCH
tapi, jauh di sudut hati, aku sedar bila keluar je dari sekolah, memang susah nak keep in touch balik.
BETUL NI. TAK TIPU !
kalau ade 10orang member baik, lepas keluar sekolah konfem tinggal 5 orang je kite selalu jumpe
this is fact!
memang berat nak tinggalkan semua ni. tapi ini ialah permulaan suatu pengorbanan :)
so, apepun...
SELAMAT TINGGAL MAKTAB SULTAN ABU BAKAR
MAKTABKU MARUAHKU
seterusnya,
sebagai anak bongsu, aku tak nafikan aku ni adelah sedikit manja. yeah betul ni tak tipu
standard lah anak bongsu kan?
tapi, faktor keluarga bukan satu isu.
BETUL NI. TAK TIPU !
sebenarnya kalau masuk asrama, family tiap2 cuti mesti jumpe kan?
tapi kawan? setahun sekali kut. tak mustahil jugak 10tahun baru jumpa balik
this is true,
selain tu, aku rase mcm best jugak dapat masuk asrama, rase berdikari, rase hidup sendiri
pastuh tak kisah sangat sebab ramai sedara dekat KL ni,
okay, what you'll feel or think when you've done something the best you can give
but in the end,
people says, you're not good enough!
it really ticks me off when that happens.
really, it happened to me
in this two month i've give everything i can, i waste everytime i have, i devoted myself
and at some point, they say, you're not good enough!
then all your hardwork and everything flashes before your eyes
and all of sudden, you feel clueless, speechless
you don't have the spirit to speak
you feel everything you did is pointless
you feel like giving up
you feel weak
you feel small
you feel you're not good
in fact, you're really not good
i know i know,
just ignore what people say
but wish i can ignore them,
everytime i tried to do it,
the voices are all around me whispering to reminds me,
what the hell are you doing?! no, no you're doing it all wrong! you're not good enough!
i wish i could be the kind of people that don't really care about what people think and say
but i wasn't that kind of people
but hey,
who cares anyway?
im just being ridiculous
someday they will know who i am
but i wonder when that they will come
so, things i've learned:
never underestimate people
give everything, expect nothing
always gives support to people because who knows, your support may drive a person to success
that's it, thank you for spending a brief moment here :)
alright, this is it..
this Thursday, 22 December 2011,
this eff-ing day scares and haunts me days and nights...
on that day, my PMR result will be out
and that's pretty much driving me crazy
it's not that i don't have the confident to get straight A's,
it's just.... idk ==
if other people says that they had a dream about their result,
or they had a good feeling about their result,
or even they don't feel like getting all A's
well, to be honest, i don't have any of that feeling,
it's just..idk laa damn shit ==
hahaha whatever it is,
i've already started to solat hajat and baca yasin and stuff
for those who are form 3,
here's some tips before taking your result
1) solat hajat, pray for you result
2) solat tahajud, to show God that you're determined to get straight A's
3) puasa sunat, ... just do it
4) ask forgiveness from your parents, teachers, friends and ask them to pray for you
5) tawakal jee
alright,if you've done these stuff, may you get straight A's.
Amin :)
srsly, these stuff is better than these:
God, please give me straight A. *send this message to 30 people or you'll flunk in PMR*
when the first time i got this message, i was like:
wtf dude? my result depend on this chain message? ==
and why would i waste my time and credit to send this crap?
srsly guys, if anyone tries to send me this kind of message thing, i'll kill you == i mean it
this thing just making people getting parnoid about their result
so, stop it guys ==
so, i guess this is it, for now
so, i end this post with a doa
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم
يا الله، امڤونيله دوسا-دوسا كامي، دوسا ايبو باڤ كامي، دوسا ڬورو-ڬورو كامي، دوسا مسلمين مسلمات. يا الله كاو ڤرمودهكنله اوروسن كامي د دنيا دان د اخيرة، كاو تابهكنله هاتي كامي والاو اڤ سهاج كڤوتوسن PMR كامي، يا الله، كاو كورنياكنله كڤوتوسن يڠ چمرلڠ ايايت سموا A دالم PMR. سسوڠڬوهڽ كامي ايڠين ممبالس جاس ايبو باڤ كامي دان ممبوات مريك ترسڽوم.
is it just me or we're getting lazier as we grow up?
like we didn't feel like doing anything that doesn't really matter to us.
like going out to play,
like helping family members doing chores,
like waking up from bed even it was 1.00 p.m?
like going to take a bath?
did you ever feel too lazy to do all that?
well i do
i wake up at 12 noon, bath at 3.p.m, and do some damn thing until 5p.m, then hang out with my friends, then Magrhib bath again, then watch tv till midnight sometimes till 2a.m if there's a good late night movie.then sleep.then wake at 12 noon, bath at 3p.m and do some...wait, it's like dejavu or something.
and one more thing, i felt my holiday passes too quick.
i mean there's only a few weeks left on the calender before PMR results are out and then,
back too school. yay! ==
the point is, ughh == there's no point at all...
i'm just saying what i think and what i felt...
about growing up..
sometimes i wish i wanna be just a kid forever...
well everyone knows that sucks.
but i really has a good point there.
being a kid, you'll always laughing your ass off, will always smile, you don't mind if people hate you, you don't care what happen, you won't feel lonely, everytime you messed up something, nobody would scold you. you will always be ... happy
ok that's it, i don't wanna mess this blog with my personal feelings whatever..it's pretty much like a journal or something. i'm not gonna make it looks like a girly diary something.
i only write when important event occurs. haha
okay, first of all, this blog is pretty much 'berhabuk' as i didn't write any post for quite a long time.
then here comes tonight where i just remembered,
'oh, lama tk update blog'
then, for a second thought,
'alah bukan ade org bukak pun kaaann?' lol
apepun, tonight aku nk cerita psl lawatan ke melaka pada 16 dan 17 November. It's something like homestay at the countryside. I think the objectives is to make us teenagers to experience the life of an 'orang kampung'
so, how's the lawatan?
this thing is damn awesome with only 20 orang je yang pergi. srsly
so the bus is pretty much kosong and it's like two seat for one person.
and the activity? it's fricking cool ! we kutip the 'getah sekerap' and squeeze it like shit to make sure it is dry enough.. then their smell is fricking 'bacin' ==
we played with the belut and their slimy thingie we sapu at our face. eeuww
then we mandi at the kolam...but for me, it was like a swamp and i did drank the muddy water and guess what? it taste like child poop == err i don't really like to talk 'bout that
Bandar Hilir :D
that night, we went to Bandar Hilir and naik Cruise and jalan-jalan and stuff. But, I really don't understand Melaka.. It's 10p.m and the shops and the city itself seem 'sleeping' at that time. I mean if in JB or KL, it's 2 a.m but people still hang out and have supper. they pretend that it was 2 p.m
teacher gave permission to jalan-jalan around Bandar Hilir and berkumpul semula at the bus in 1 hour. and to be truth,1 hour isn't enough.
and we late exactly 26 minutes.
we went to A Famosa and the time is 11 p.m. I MEAN 11 P.M !!
people around there must be asking what the hell those kid doing up on the A Famosa in the night.
then the driver was mad at us coz we're late.
act, we're making things even out. earlier in the morning, we stopped at R&R and had a breakfast. After we finished we waited for the driver for like 1 hour or something. Then the teacher asked me and my friend to look after the driver.
We did found him, at the souvenir shop, looking at some damn keris and says,
"WAH, DULU RM60 SEKARANG 359 !"
and i was like WTF MAN?! !#$%*&
so we're are even.
we're late and you're late too?
you okay with that?
then we went back to the homestay. we had some small supper. I didn't ate very much. I already had a McD at Bandar Hilir. So i just move on.
that night, we're preparing to sleep. then some motherfuckers made us to lepak outside for awhile.
we lepak under something like gazebo or pondok and start sharing ghost stories, about that place, about our 97 years old school, about gadjets, about some popular kid, about anything we could talk about untill 3a.m
it's freaking cold outside and these motherfuckers only wears kain pelikat and boxers. i think their balls must be made up of boiled eggs.. i guess.
then, someone tells that we should get inside and sleep. but i can't even close my eyes so i hang out with some gays on their bed and get to sleep.
Day 2
Then the Sun shines. Morning arrived
The Subuh is waaayy colder than the night. #lol,subuh mana ada matahari xDD
Then, after breakfast, we did some sukaneka thingie like terompah gergasi, baling selipar and stuff. In the evening we went to the sawah padi, rubber estate, kilang batik and kilang berus sabut. i guess, i cant remember everything
Then we went straight home. Actually, we could've went to the Batu Pahat Wet World, but i guess the driver must still mad at us so he say he can't take us there.
Then we had ABC Cendol on the way home, at Ayer Hitam. Then I fell asleep until we reached Skudai.
We arrived school at 7 something p.m. hang out at Tepian and went home.
So, that's pretty much of my journey this time. I'll surely miss all the stuff and the guys too :DD
before this, maybe a lot of people noticed that i have this attitude...bad attitude
SELFISH
yes, i am SELFISH SELFISH always help me to solve my problem.
yeahh that is my bad attitude
and i'm sorry if i ever being selfish to you
but, against all my selfishness, i have this attitude...idk whether it is a good or bad attitude
I CANNOT SEE ANYBODY AROUND ME THAT NEED MY HELP
i'll try to help them...i swear i'll try
i have this strong feeling that i must help them
even the help i gave may makes me regret
but whenever someone ask help from me....anything...do this or do that...or whatever.. i won't let them down, i'll do whatever i can, whatever it takes,
even that sometimes it gave me much trouble...i'll do
but, in the end...i always regret for what i've done...
i always tried to hide the feeling so i won't hurt anybody's heart...
but i know, i shouldn't regret anything...
at least i've done the good thing...
i may lose something, but won't lose everything
i have this feeling that i have to sacrifice eveything i had just to make people smile, to make them happy
if they happy, im happy too...
so, there's nothing to be sad about... as long as we are happy
but the saddest things that always happen to me...
after all i've done... i see people change in a blink of eye
idk whether 'they' realize this...
but whenever it's my turn to ask them for a favor..
they tend to be ignorant, ungrateful, or what the malay's proverb says
BAGAI KACANG LUPAKAN KULIT
so listen my friends
lend your helping hands
a friend in need is a friend indeed
appreciate people
don't be selfish
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